Merry Go-Round Of Life

In my book Imani all mine, the author shows a young girl Tasha trying to find her place in adult hood. Tasha is now a mother of a new born baby and trying to finish school and also be the best mother she can be but her life is full of up and downs.

Tasha is in a generation where girls her age are already having sex or getting pregnant but she never thought it would be her. Tasha never even thought about that topic it was always about friends and school. Tasha had low self-esteem in the process of having Imani. “He never said I was pretty or nothing right before he kissed me in my mouth”, Tasha was young and naive at that point because at that very moment the boy who’s name is not yet revealed  took advantage of her and raped her until he was satisfied. I felt that was one of the key moments in the whole book because even something so bad happened to Tasha she learned that the world and people are not always kind and you have to see that this world does not care about you in the long run.

Tasha is still a child in an adult world and body. She still wants her mother attention while showing her baby some too. Tasha has not yet found a happy medium with her self. Juggling her crazy life and only being 14 still a child in her own mother’s womb. “Maybe I am getting too grown to want to sleep with Mama. But like a baby, I still have this smallness to my mind. I don't need her hands to convince me the world I can't see from under my blanket is real. I need her hands to do more than her words. Convince me the world I see outside it- ain't.” In this quote I feel Tasha is trying to say that she doesn’t want her mother to forget that she is a child. Tasha wants to do certain things that a small child would do if there scared of the thunder or hiding from the monsters under their bed. Growing up is all about leaving your childish thoughts behind and getting new ideas. Tasha is not out of that stage because she still wants to be coddled by her mother.

As a young adult you have your moments when all you want is that loving and affection that you used to get as a little kid. The question I ask why does that stop? Is it because were growing up and don’t want to be bothered by our parents or because they just know we need our space? Tasha mother has stopped giving her that affection as soon she felt she was growing up and I feel that’s why Tasha can’t come to her mother and tell her she was raped.

Coming of Age has an affect on every teen age life. Growing up is one of the hardest things you can over come. There are so many things that come up during coming of age and how do you deal with these problems when you’re trying to decide if you’re into boys or into girls, maybe both? Coming of age is hard for Tasha and I  think\hope she will grow up and be the person she strives to be.

SCHOOL TEACHER'S GONE WILD

                Knowing that you're not safe not even in your own school is scary. the fact that a school teacher is on a 10 fugitive list that Osama Bin Laden was on is mind-blowing. Eric J. Toth, a schoolteacher from the Washington area accused of possessing child pornography is now on this list. the question is how does any parent know what's going on inside of a school. we have teachers that are supposed to help us and consular's for us to get us out of our own world but now that teachers and sexually abusing students who will your kids turn to if not you?

            This article makes me worried for any student that faces this kind of problem,  this sexual abuse is not just happening to girls its boys to. no gender or race is safe in this case. different teachers target different kids. there has been going a lot around the media about teachers now a days and what happens inside the school. I saw in newspaper ads that a handful of teachers were caught and only 3 of their pictures were up!  I think its ridiculous that a SCHOOL TEACHER is on such a list this makes me think of everybody in any kind of business trying to help or protect citizens can do such an act and could be put on the list to.

       Reading this article it made me do more resreach about this topic and i learned alot . Men are not the only adult to be blamed in situians like this ,all genders of teachers can touch , talk, have pictures of kids now a days but why? and how?  Eric J. Toth was good at comuters they said and who knows what he got off there then all those pictures , we as kids never know what we do and talk about on the computure can really end us in big trouble .  Everyody has o take a stand and make school once again a safe place.

teachers have gone wild but so have kids but we can alled be tamed (fyi) h

Another one Dead Again

                when people die it's the most heart breaking feeling you could ever feel, knowing that the person who was there for you your whole life is now dead and in the grave. when your religious people always say the person is in a better place now but just because they say that doesn't make you feel any better. I'm writing about this because an innocent young man died from  another's man bullet. I know this happens all the time but the thing that is different was he was INNOCENT  and never should have lost his life.

       Trayvon Martin , a regular teen just like you and me with a future ahead of him was killed by another's man bullet George Zimmerman . Zimmerman was not a COP but just a watch guard! he shot Trayvon because he looked like he was up to "something" also Trayvon had a hood on and he was black. Zimmerman took matters in to his hands even after the police told him to wait until they came but I guess Zimmerman couldn't wait to kill a black boy because he was just another Nigger to him. Zimmerman took a young boys life and can never give it back or make this right.

      Zimmerman walks around the streets today but why isn't killing somebody enough to put them in jail all ready? or do they need information to why he shot him or what he shot him for ? the point is that Zimmerman was not a COP, he was a WATCH GUARD!  Zimmerman took another's person life and now he should have his life taken away  and rot in jail.

     In conclusion i feel the world and the system is all messed up and it needs to be fixed. when i read this article about Trayvon Martin i thought of this song called  “Living for the City,” its  tells a story of a black man who goes to the city, only to be arrested after witnessing a drug deal, it just shows that even when you do nothing the color of your skin can determine your future at times.

BEAUTIFUL BUT ALONE

            In the book Hey World, Here I Am! By Jean Little, Another one of my favorite poem's is Alone, the first time I read this poem it made me want to be alone for just a while. This poem is one of the reasons that made me like the darkness at night. Little has done it again and made go back into my toy chest for some more memories.

            “My own sadness makes everything around me more beautiful”, the first time I ever read this line I never understood what she was trying to say. I always asked my self how is being sad beautiful? Until the day I was in the dark and crying my eyes out and noticed how beautiful the sky was and how pretty the night could really be. I saw things that were already there but I never took the time to notice them for more then what they are or picture them something different. Being in the dark that night and understanding that quote changed how I saw things and made me more open.

            ‘I am alone. I am lonely I am growing into me.” Another quote that I am in love with because when your alone you think about what’s happening in your life or others. Your mind is free from people asking questions or just talking .Your talking to yourself, at peace with yourself in your own room. Most people do everything for everyone and sometimes that quite time in that dark room just you, will clear your head and make things peaceful until you go back into the light. This poem brought me something that I never had peace.

            Little has brought me back again with a life lesson in return being by your self for a while is ok because silence is beautiful in the end.  So long Toy Chest see you next time….

GROWING UP HAS GROWING PAINS

            In the book Hey World, Here I Am! By Jean Little. One of my favorite poems is Growing Pains because I can relate to it so much not just being a teenager but like any kid my age or younger knowing what it’s like to have an adult on your back 24/7. Jean Little shows her readers what we do when having “Growing Pains”.

            In the poem one of my favorite lines little wrote was “She said I was lazy and self-centered. She said my room was a pigsty”. I think anyone could relate to this quote, my mom tells me this all the time and I liked this quote so much because it brings me back to when I was little and when I used to hear this all the time. Little made me think of all the times I used to hear this saying. Little opened my toy chest and brought back all the memories of my child hood and that is one of the reasons this poem is special to me.

            Another quote I liked from this poem was “I’m just a kid” that really stuck out to me because sometimes I feel adults forget that were just KIDS! My parents know I am just a kid but sometimes I think they forget. We “kids” mess up all the time for stupid stuff at that , but at the end of the day we have to learn to grow and messing up is definitely apart of growing pains. The growing pains we all get are normal and sometimes we don’t understand why we act like a crazy person or over sensitive. Little understood why and thats why she wrote this poem for all the teenagers out here with GROWING  PAINS.

      In conclusion we all act a certain way with our pains but we all know the feeling of growing up and thats why anyone can relate to this poem,Your Mom, Dad , even your Grandma but the one person that really relates is YOU!.

Letter Of Shame ( A)

In the book The Scarlet Letter By: Nathaniel Hawthorne it tells a story about a women named Hester Prynne . Hester committed a crime for adultery and now wears a red A on her breast so her whole community can know what she did. This takes place in the 1640s so women at this time where held at a certain standard they were not as independent as the women today. This was a really big crime back then ( cheating) and Hester had to go to prison for her crime.

            Hester really makes me think about the modern world today and how a community of people will judge you. Now in today's world some people commit adultery and even worst, even though society sometimes frowns upon them you don't see people like Kris Jenner wearing an A on her chest or any other person in America.

            In the book Hester has flash backs about the "misshapen" man as he is called and everything they been through. Hester will not reveal this man at all not even to the priest.
Hester I feel is strong and will not stop without a fight. I think another women would have just told to get it over with but Hester has loyalty to this "misshapen" man. Hester has to wear the red A her whole life and everybody knows what she have done but think about it what if everybody in the world knew your secrets ?

Strong, Powerful, Assata

   In the book ASSATA, an autobiography about an black panther who was excused of killing a new jersey state trooper and the trails she went through in the jail and being treated as not just a black person but being African American in general.
    Assata is a strong black one and one of the people that i never even new about. Assata is strong and independent . She shows these characteristics buy not saying a word to the cops when she was brutally beaten and chained to a hospital bed when they were questioning her about the New Jersey State  Trooper that she "Killed" Assata never sold any body out because she new that either way they were going to try to put her friends and her in jail and wouldn't care.
  Assata never loss hope or faith even when they charged her with all these crimes and robberies she never did. It just showed me back in those times that people didn't care about African Americans and wouldn't care if we were dead or alive in the first place. White People only thought we were here to serve them or get whipped.
   Assata is another person i respect in life and wanna know more about her. I know that there was people who were willing to die for our race and to make a change and that means the world to me.